Wednesday, December 8, 2010

Thoughts in a Jar

I wish I could put all of my thoughts in a jar. I think too much. Thinking too much causes me to over think and analyze things that I don't want to deal with. It gets too much for me to handle and I panic. I shut down and go to war with myself. I'm tired. I'm sick of being tired. I don't always like who I am, but I have to live with it. I don't know what I'm doing. I'm tired of feeling sad. Sick of wanting things and people that I can't have.
Some days I wake up and I just feel so empty, so alone, so invisible, and so completely dissatisfied with who I am. My heart feels lonely. Everything feels so meaningless.
There are times when you're just broken into pieces. You don't even feel lime you still exist. Why are we so fragile? Some people just continue to stay with what hurts them the most. At the end of the day, I guess no one wants to feel empty inside. Maybe, that's why some people find moving on so hard.
Something that has hurt you once will usually hurt you again...
I just want to finally be a peace with myself and lock up these thoughts. BlogBooster-The most productive way for mobile blogging. BlogBooster is a multi-service blog editor for iPhone, Android, WebOs and your desktop

1 comment:

  1. I so understand what that feels like, when i deal with things i dont like talking about it with people, thus "suffer in silence" thats when i think to much, get uspset, but no one really understands whats going on. A vicious circle, you just have to direct your thoughts in another direction, i find that helps. :) I throw myself into activities, painting, drawing, singing, writting, blogging, whatever distracts me.