When the World Stops

Have you ever had one of those moments where your whole world just stops for a moment and you can't breathe. I always thought that when this happens it was because of something good. Not this time..

I had just come home from my Mock Region Audition. Everything about the audition was perfect, it was my best ever, so naturally I was in a really great mood. Unfortunately that mood didn't last very long. I walk in the door and sit down and I hear those two words...

We're moving...

I feel like the world has just been pulled from under me. Nothing is stable and concrete anymore.. I can't breathe right and nothing is clear through my blurry vision. How am I supposed to study for my PSAT now.. How am I supposed to take that test tomorrow.

Things have just started getting close to perfect. I have been amazingly happy! My grades are great, I'm not worrying about boys, I have amazing friends, the house was just painted, my 16th is coming up, everything was perfect.

Well, I guess I was getting too happy and too comfortable.

We are moving this Christmas Break, no exceptions.. it's just a matter of where we are moving to.. Anchorage, Alaska or Oklahoma City, Oklahoma.. the only upside to this whole thing is that we get to choose.

Ugh! I hate this.. I think I'm just going to defenestrate myself out of the tallest building I can find. Sorry guys but I have to go research up on choirs and school academic profiles... maybe I will be able to see through these blurry eyes.

So sad...

Have been at practice till 6 or later everyday this week and then I get home and still have a crap load of homework to do, and I can't fit blogging in there too.. sorry. Nobody really reads this though... so I don't really know who I'm talking to..
Anyway.. Today I found out that my choir director just got accepted into some college something to get his doctorate. He has probably been the most influential person in my choir/singing career. I always felt so comfortable with him and most of my best memories of Freshman year were with him and the other two super fish. It's going to be tough these last few weeks, and I can almost guarentee that every class period from now to the end of the year will be very emotional. :( I'll probably cry on a few of those days.. It's a good change, it's just... hard to take in and get used to. NOBODY, and I mean NOBODY could ever even compete with his super awesomeness and I could probably go on forever sharing some of my favorites stories and just attempting to explain how amazing he is.. I will always remember him.. Forever and ever amen.
That's all that was really important to me today....
Big Choir Performance tomorrow night... Pretty excited/scared/sad
Well... that is all I guess. Goodnight Bloggers!

Oh by the way.. I picked a picture of a very distressed Sam because obviously I am not the best at the moment and my director liked Lord of the Rings.